Have you ever felt like you’re fighting windmills? Trying to prove what is right, to defend the truth, to stand on the correct side - and instead meeting only twisted interpretations, constant distractions, and a complete refusal to hear your arguments. You speak, but they ignore you, belittle what you say, or skip over it as if nothing was said at all.
And you get irritated. A quiet, inner annoyance. You feel like you’re facing a wall that doesn’t move. A wall that won’t accept even a small part of what you’re saying, because it has closed both its eyes to seeing and its ears to hearing. And you wonder how such a thing is even possible. You start asking yourself whether you even know the person in front of you.
It happens to me occasionally.
I try to explain a situation, to look at it from every side I can - but I still hit that wall. A wall built from one-sided thinking, locked against any change or action. A wall mixed with apathy and ego, where arguments are filtered out as if they were never spoken, or treated as something unimportant. A wall that brings up facts outside the current context, or pulls something random from the past just to use it as a comparison now. A wall that brings “nine buckets of water” (or in English, endlessly dragging in unrelated points) just to run away from the topic. A wall of superiority, of open or hidden disrespect. A wall of conscious or unconscious arrogance.
And I ask myself - what does Truth even mean then, if it is not truth for the other side? If their single point of view is placed on a pedestal and cannot be touched? When they defend it to the end, even when they are wrong? When they use tricks to dismiss your arguments as “small things”, bring up irrelevant topics, or show only their own interests? And when fairness as a concept is nowhere to be found?
You may call it egoism - I call it immaturity.
I often wonder how people who act like this actually live. How they look at their own life, their goals, their relationships. Whether they realize how selfish and one-sided everything is. Whether they care at all, or they just move through the world trapped inside their own “self.”
And whether they care about Truth - or simply have “their own truth”.
And in the end - is there any meaning in searching for Truth and Justice in that case, or is it just a fixed idea, a moral value some people carry inside, while others simply don’t? What is the price of trying to prove what is right, if the other side does not care at all and accepts only their own perspective?
Because any attempt that starts under such conditions is doomed to fail. A real conversation exists only between equal sides - not when one of them is ethically undeveloped and tightly closed. Because in such a situation, you have no good move left - you will neither prove anything, nor achieve anything.
And if, by some chance, after long and repeated attempts, facts, and arguments, you finally manage to break through - the reply is always the same: “Okey, I'm wrong, so what?”, “It’s already in the past”, “Let’s not go back to that”, or another way to neglect it.
What remains is only disappointment. And it’s better to walk away in the begining, than to continue pointlessly.
© 2025 Nikola Vasilev